Sunday, February 10, 2008

My Reason...wow.

Wow! This is a great topic. I don't know where to begin. I can say that I relate with all your posts...it must be a motherhood thing.
I homeschool because I always wanted to (cheesy, I know). Mattea was 12-18 months when I had no choice to leave her with strangers in a child care. She was still a baby in my eyes and would cry her poor little heart out every time I left her. I would check on her as much as possible, but it wasn't the same as me watching her grow and teaching her things I thought were important. I was sad to miss out on that. But, being a single mom and trying to get an education to become self sufficient didn't leave me the option to stay at home.
I homeschool because my daughter was in child care settings since she was a baby...then kindergarten came! I was afraid to let her go...every step of the way was agonizing. My baby already had unsafe, bad experiences when she was in a public setting and I feared the reoccurrence, since teachers can't stop everything.
I homeschool because a teacher told my daughter she couldn't use both hands to write with and I was perfectly fine with it, but the teacher tried to tell me it was damaging to allow her to do that. Mattea is left handed but can write with both...I think it's amazing...reminds me of when I was a kid and was assigned to write a story...so I did, but I did it all backwards letters and text...all backwards. I needed a mirror to read it.
I homeschool because when I had put Mattea in PS for the whole 3-4 weeks she was there, she turned into such a hateful, tired, desperate little girl. I looked into her eyes and it was like my daughter wasn't even in there.
I homeschool because I got to see more of my daughter. When I went to school and Mattea was in PS we saw less of each other. I missed my baby.
Oh my, now you all got me crying.
I homeschool because I want to see my daughter grow and I want to have a say in what I find appropriate to teach my child. I want her to learn the things that interest her. I want her to want to learn. I want her to appreciate all the beauty and goodness of the world God has given us. (not worldly world)
I homeschool to preserve her innocence. She is a kid. Of course I want her to grow up (deep down). But she doesn't need to learn things or be exposed to them at such a young age. At a time it could be more damaging. Don't misinterpret that as being sheltered...not at all what I am implying. I give her the knowledge she asks for with the gospel in mind. I'll give an example: the church's standard and approach to teaching children about sex and society's do not line up...I Choose The Church's!
I homeschool because I prayed about and got an extremely overwhelming confirmation (I need to hang on to that).

****Homeschooling has brought my family closer together. During the decision making process I prayed so much even when I got a confirmation because HS is such a life changing decision. What if I screwed her up? What if I didn't give her all she needed? Is she going to have a growing or depleting testimony of the gospel? I am a student. This isn't logical. How will I do this? I did pros and cons and HS always won (if that's what you want to call it).
I had so much going through my mind, but when it came down to it, the answer is obvious, I homeschool.
The Lord paved the way:
*I went online to research single parent homeschool and by the good graces of our Father in Heaven, I found and became in contact with a single homeschooling mother in my town! She helped me get going and gave me so much information and encouragement.
Everything fell into place.
* I had a friend willing to keep Mattea while I was in class
*My mom (who isn't always supportive) was very supportive and encouraging.

This has been a wonderful topic for me to reflect on, so thank you KIM for asking. I was feeling inadequate and like putting Mattea in school recently. After reading everyones post and reflecting on my own reasons I am now reminded of why I homeschool and why for now, until the Lord prompts me otherwise, I homeschool.
I do want to add that I cannot do anything without prayer or Heavenly Father (Alma 26) . If there is anything I have a testimony of it is prayer. I always get answers, guidance, direction, & comfort...even if the comfort is just knowing that the Lord hears me. I prayed about homeschool and the Lord impressed upon me to do it, so ultimately that is why I homeschool.

1 comment:

Angela said...

There is so much great stuff on here- Guess what I will be doing all day! Reading your BLOG!

Angela
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